It is Never Too Late

I currently have 2 projects in my hands now and this is one of the hardest things i have ever done. i'm used in being called as a media to cover events, or write an article about event or interview celebrities, or maybe just being a blogger being called  for movie screening, food reviews and many more .. however, i am always curious on the how's and the why's.

how they organised this event ? how they know so many medias? how they get so many sponsors? How they call down celebrities down? 

Last year when i started college, i dont even know what i want to do, what attracted me to mass communications was a mixture of what i like which is writing and behind the scenes Little did i know,.. there was a sociology subject to understand society and culture, i had public relations, computer graphics, video production and many more. When i was 18, i wonder how some of my classmates are already so experienced in editing, or photography or even creative thinking skills. When it comes to group discussion i wish i could contribute more then what i contributed, i wish i could help the team in a better way and i wish i could start a skill when i was young or stop regretting that  i actually took up ballet, piano and gymnastics when i was young. Why quit? Perhaps i didnt know its good for the future, for my body posture, or perhaps i didnt know what was competitions, challenges i face? Maybe just maybe.. i was lack of advises, motivations or a push start. 

How am i suppose to know what i like? what is my passion? My hobby was writing stories and love watching behind scenes? i was less exposed and during that time frienster came along, and it didnt really exposed me into such ways where i could increase my general knowledge? Well, to be honest, i didnt know what was period or sex or violence until i reached secondary school. 

I traveled to places i wish i could go again. Korea, Tokyo, Los Angeles, Hong Kong,Singapore.. etc... but what really didnt dawned on me was . skills/talent or observations. Imagine if i was a dancer, perhaps i could start going auditions while travelling, if i had my first camera at a young age maybe a film camera,  perhaps i would be one of the well-known film photographers. If i could just knew what  i really like i would have a childhood passion and maybe just maybe i  could proudly say " i was a dancer since age 2"? imagine how far i become now? or if i never quit piano, now, i could join a band, be a freelancer or compose music for people.  or if i have only told my mum i love gymnastics, i would be doing my stunts and things i wish i could do like the beams, vault...  

Whatever it is, we dont give up,  I've got nothing to do in high school, some of my classmates is a state tennis player, one of my  juniors is a national swimmer and most of them is msskl ruunner. I tried running, but im not fast enough, i was a long distant runner but never win. My biggest achievement was pushing myself during a 4km school marathon, i keep asking myself "run, just run, you are one of the last ones"... "dont give up, win for purple house"  and won 7th place and i had a medal i was like ;D. When i was form 4, i failed additional mathematics and double digit "22" was my biggest achievement.  i am always weak in my add maths untill i met a great teacher, she taught me one on one lesson, i went to her house everyday after school, sit and do untill 6pm.  Calculator was my best fren but solutions wasn't.  i could feel deep down i was one of the weakest, end of the form 4 year, i had to start over my form 4 add maths from chapter 1 with her by my side. Some of the class i cried because i can't find the answers. When it came to form 5, i had to join her other form 4 class. Day by day, i had so many homework to do, she told me to learn with the examples and see the answer to make me understand.  Few months before Spm, i got nervous. can i really do it? can i really pass? Results came and i had. a.. B. I was like whaaaat? i couldnt believe my eyes, all those practices from an F to a B. Achievements are something to be proud off with a little add on of determination and motivation. 

At the age of 16, i joined Brats which is under Star Publication company. its basically like if they have any assignments, they post, you volunteer to cover. I thought this could be just a little workshop to try during my holiday.Bought my dslr just for this.  AGAIN, didnt dawned on me that maybe i could venture into photography. i was 16! I miss so many opportunities surrounded me but i didnt see its just right in front of me. I interviewed Dia Frampton, Thia Megia , had a few stories on the newspaper. i realized that this.. is my starting point of what i want to do. maybe? maybe not?

As time pass, i learn to know things in a rational way where last time i used to think smokers are bad people but now smokers smoke for a reason and hey, some smokers are friendly ok. I realized yes i do regret quitting ballet, piano and gymnasticcs and such young age but hey i still have this interest in me and it is never too late to start. i tend to contribute more ideas to my friends, i tend to explore more and observe more. Hence, it dawned on me that is never too late to explore new things, to understand things, to grab opportunities when you see them and here i am now more bold and alert on the how's and why's, its not just research but its college who taught me more.. more that i need to know about behind the scenes ( broadcasting), the green screen, editing, photography and many more. Now, its not just im interested in behind the scenes, i love events and i love photography i love so many things, i want to help companies, i want to work! i want to do so many things!

In conclusion, dont let anyone stop you in what you do, no matter how hard the situation is, break the wall and take risk. IT ... is never too late to do or start anything you want to do. Aim High and NEVER LET YOUR GUT DOWN